It’s been 13 days since my last drink. I do pretty good until Mary’s birthday hits, then I just fall apart. It’s not really clear why she disowned me but I’m sure she has her reasons but it hurts like hell. I don’t really talk about it much so I just fall apart occasionally. I love my daughters so much and I’m grateful that Leah has stood by me no matter what but she doesn’t really want to talk about it so I go it alone.